\u015eu an tuhaf bir hava var… D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda her \u015fey normal; insanlar i\u015fine gidiyor, ekranlar kay\u0131yor, zaman ilerliyor…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama sanki i\u00e7eride ba\u015fka bir \u015fey oluyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir huzursuzluk…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sebebi tam bilinmeyen ama g\u00f6rmezden de gelinemeyen bir s\u0131k\u0131\u015fma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sanki i\u00e7imizde bir par\u00e7a, art\u0131k eski c\u00fcmlelerle anlat\u0131lam\u0131yor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu his \u00e7o\u011fu zaman yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131r. “Nank\u00f6rl\u00fck” denir, “\u015f\u0131mar\u0131kl\u0131k” denir, “abart\u0131” denir… Oysa bu, hayat\u0131n insana att\u0131\u011f\u0131 en d\u00fcr\u00fcst \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lardan biridir. Art\u0131k ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde devam edemezsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u0130nsan zihni al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyleri sever. Tan\u0131d\u0131k olan, g\u00fcvenlidir. Ama bilin\u00e7 b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, eski kal\u0131plar dar gelmeye ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u015fte o zaman;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eskiden tolere edilen \u015feyler batmaya ba\u015flar,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck olaylar b\u00fcy\u00fck tepkiler do\u011furur,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Ben kimim?” sorusu aniden ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu bir \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f de\u011fildir. Bu, i\u00e7sel bir yeniden d\u00fczenlemedir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayat, art\u0131k ta\u015f\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n y\u00fckleri g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr k\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6rmedi\u011fin s\u00fcrece b\u0131rakmazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fcnya h\u0131zland\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00fcrekli bir \u015feylere yeti\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz ama hep kendimize ge\u00e7 kal\u0131yoruz. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bug\u00fcn bir\u00e7ok insan farkl\u0131 yerlerde, ayn\u0131 anlarda \u015funu hissediyor;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Benim i\u00e7imde daha sahici bir versiyon var ve ben onu susturuyorum.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u00e7sel rahats\u0131zl\u0131k tam burada ba\u015flar. \u0130nsan, kendi ger\u00e7e\u011fiyle aras\u0131na mesafe koydu\u011funda…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Beden, duygu ve zihin birlikte sinyal verir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bug\u00fcn kendini k\u00f6t\u00fc hissediyorsan, bu seninle ilgili bir eksiklik olmayabilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Belki de ilk defa ger\u00e7ekten kendini dinliyosundur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Rahats\u0131zl\u0131k, y\u00f6n g\u00f6sterir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kayg\u0131, durup bakman\u0131 ister,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Huzursuzluk, de\u011fi\u015fimin kap\u0131s\u0131nda bekler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendine \u015fu soruyu sormak yeterli olabilir;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Bu his, benden ne istiyor?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Art\u0131k neyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmek zorunda de\u011filim?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cevap hemen gelmeyebilir ama soru soruldu\u011funda, s\u00fcre\u00e7 ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm her zaman b\u00fcy\u00fck kararlarla gelmez. Bazen sadece \u015fu c\u00fcmleyle ba\u015flar;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Bunu art\u0131k istemiyorum.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kolektif olarak tam bu e\u015fi\u011fin \u00fczerindeyiz. Eski al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klarla yeni bir bilin\u00e7 yan yana duram\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve belki en cesur \u015fey \u015fudur; “Kendine yalan s\u00f6ylememek.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yeni hikaye d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fckle yaz\u0131lmaya ba\u015flar. Sessiz, sade ve ger\u00e7ek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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